Trust that you are doing the best you can!

I had an amazing birthday celebration this weekend! I could not have felt more spoiled by my husband than I did. Not only did he get me floor tickets for Carrie Underwood, in the 20th row, but he gathered some of my good friends together for a day on the boat and a night out on the town.
He also helped me realize something incredibly important, and that is that he loves me more than anything. And sometimes, oftentimes, I forget that key fact.  I think that we just get so very busy with work, kids, household, extracurricular activities and stress, that we don't have much time to show our love to each other. So we both just need to remember that this is where we are in life today. We do have 4 kids, he does travel almost every Mon - Fri, I am trying to sell cake pops, create marketing ideas for the restaurant, pick up serving shifts and make sure everyone is where they need to be, on time, in clean clothes and with a full belly. But I am not trying to work on my run on sentence skills, just in case you were wondering! I am grateful to spend almost all of my time with Andrew. I am so lucky to be able to be where ever Isaac needs me to be, whenever he needs me. But to do those things, Rob has to be on the road. And when he isn't on the road, he is working late into the night to catch up on all of the work he didn't get done while he was on the road. I am so grateful for the life he allows us to live!
So, that is what I learned during my birthday celebration...Life is so busy, I may feel unloved. But needing to be so many places for so many people, should remind me how loved I actually am!  So if I get a little whiny once in awhile, feel free to remind me that I need to live in the moment, and although my moment is controlled chaos, there isn't anywhere else I should be.

On a different note, orders for Faye's Cake Pops are really starting to come in. Which is pretty cool since I haven't done anything to promote them except start a Facebook page and feed them to my friends! I really do love baking and playing in the kitchen. It is a little tough with all of Andrew's help, but still fun.  This weekend I will be making an order for Regions Bank, a bachelorette party and a Spider-Man themed birthday. I am actually letting cakes cool as I type and while Andrew naps.

I guess Rob was right when I said I wanted to retire...He responded with "until you find something else you love to do". I love making cake pops. I also love making a marketing pitch to get more events in the restaurant doors. But i'll be honest and admit that what I love the most is taking a nap with Andrew and feeling his sweet soft head under my chin as he snuggles up to me.

Dizzy Bat

The last couple of days I feel like I have been playing the dizzy bat game. You know the one...Where you put the end of a bat on the ground and your nose on the handle and you spin around in a circle 10 times, then stand up and try and run to a pre-determined destination...That seems to be me on a regular basis. And then of course I fall down because I am so dizzy! And when I say dizzy, I don't mean in parable terms, I mean literally I am dizzy and nauseous. Of course the people closest to me assume I am pregnant, so I peed on a stick an hour ago, much to my dismay, I was not. So then it is time to figure out what is going on, and I make a list of the things I am a part of at some level or another. YWCA GED tutoring, Junior Achievement volunteer teacher, Alzheimer's Association sponsorship chair, Worthwhile board member, Relief Society President, Giandi's catering brand manager, Feld Entertainment sponsorship sales, Maxx the Robot brand manager, Rainbow Valley sponsorship sales, I Run For the Party sponsorship sales and another event that is occurring tonight that I think ended up being a big flop.

To top it all off, I go to boot camp at 5:15 in the mornings, I try to keep the house clean and groceries stocked, get 1 kid to and from everything and 2 kids to and from everything half of the time, and I am trying to get pregnant with someone who is excited one minute and freaking out the next.

It is no wonder I feel as if I am in a dizzy bat game. To make matters worse, all I want to do is curl up and watch movies for a week and read books. But I just can't. Today I did the Barkley's October budget and it is really scary. We are going to be walking a very fine line, which is never fun in our home. And hubby wants to know if I can make money anywhere else. Again, I want to put my head in the proverbial sand and never come out!

But alas, I must get to work. I feel like Isaac hit the nail on the head last night when he said "you need to make more money", and I said, "yes, but I don't have time to take on any more clients". To which he responded "well then hire someone" and I informed him "I don't make enough to pay anyone else right now". So how does someone make that transition when they are starting a company? Is there a magic formula? If so, please feel me in!

Until then, I will keep trying to get everything done.